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I do, I do, I do! Yes, I DO LOVE YOU!

Hey girl, do you know how much I love you? You won't know even though it is very obvious. I don't know why we all keep drifting away. What did I do to deserve this? Did you know that I missed the time! I really do miss that time when we were together. Only the two of us. When you held my arm and dragged me away from buying you an ice cream. That feeling just won't go away. And when you brushed my hair.. You mean SOMETHING for me.

I hope you read this. Right now. Because I really want to say that I really LOVE you! From the bottomless abyss of my heart, I can hear the voice that tells me to keep on sticking to you. But everytime that I'm near you, I always fail. You are a very good girl, a girl whose values are not of wordly values! You know you are very unique. Neither are you materialistic. You are such a simple girl; the kind of girl that I LOVE the MOST. Finding you is like locating a precious gem that I'd like to keep forevermore. Can this heart be wrong???

Hey GIRL, I need you in my life. I Love You. I really do LOVE you. I wish I could soften your heart. I wish I could bring myself back to those one joyful week. Thank you for her presence, God. I might not be the guy that she likes but one thing for sure, I will always love you. ALWAYS.

I Promise You I WILL

If I die, will you still remember me? I hope you will because at that point of time, the last thing that comes past my mind will be you. Only you. Those fingerprints that left a stain on my hands, those clutch that I will never ever forget. You, yeah ... you, honey that attracts.

Till the very last second of my life, you will always be that one. Yes, that one. All might have become so different by then. We would not be together but these memories will never ever break the ties between us. How could I know that I would fall for you? Who knew?

The first time I saw you, you were merely a plain woman; just like the rest. Merely an ordinary awesome young pretty lady and the thought of becoming your special one had never come across my mind. But since that day, that very day when I rolled the eight over and laid down the ninth, bonds started to have each others their ways. I chose to choose you! Yeah, you! Do you know how special it is?? Out of hundreds of women out there, I chose you! I realised that I had fallen for you. So much that everytime the thoughts and images of you never disappear.

Perhaps you've grown weary. Do you know that I am dismayed and maimed by your living tissue. Things might have gone awry but hey, you have my heart ... At least for the most part. I just didn't want it to be like this nor had I planned it to be like this. But if this is the best for both of us then yeah. Tainted is the Honey.

I am just lucky. Lucky to have met you. You make it easier when life gets hard. :)

"I'll wait for you. I promise you I WILL"

They Hurt

I cried just now. I have never cried like this for a long time. In a house all alone, I spent my time scrolling your photos over and over again. You are so beautiful but hey, I am not the only one who admires you. I am of different nationality and you might prefer one of the same.

And the fact that I have a secret admirer makes me wonder. Am I that great or is it just a prank? Or is it my alter ego?? I know I have more than one personality. But this just seems... so real! Am I Bean?? I don't know. Only psychiatrists know.

The fact that I may have another self: THAT HURTS.

The fact that you are running away: THAT HURTS

The fact that you are cold: THAT HURTS

The fact that you are ignoring me: THAT HURTS

The fact that you don't want to reply me: THAT HURTS.

They hurt. They just hurt.

When 19 is The Number

Parents are not here. Friends forget my birthday. What's the world gonna be without online social-networking sites? Those friends turn out to be just friends. Some will pass the test; many will lose; Even more will surrender without fighting. Secluded and unknown. Yeah. Life could be better.

So, happy birthday to me!

Steven, you've been such a great self! I love you for your principles, for your storm-resistiveness, for your life, for your talents, for your stories, for your status and most importantly ... FOR YOUR OWN SELF. Thank you God, I have a chance to live here, on earth. Thank you Lord for the health that You have granted to me. Thank you Jesus for those 18 years. Thank you.

Thank you. :)

I Want to Play a Game

Hello my dear friends, I want to play a game.

Since the very beginning, all of you have friends to look after you, to be cared-for, to be groomed by. Ironically you all have never thought of helping your friends in time of troubles. Having been living a life through blinded eyes, this time I chose to have you blindfolded. And the hopelessness you are struggling with is what you bestowed unto others. Some of you call it karma, I call it justice. Right now, lying 120 cm in front of your abdomen is a pair of chainsaws; as time ticks the chair will move forward, 10 cm in every 10 seconds, and eventually rip your body into half. Your hands are tied to the armrests and the key to your life lies 30 cm in front of your face. Your neck is shackled and its rear part is connected to a chain which is tied to your 5 best friends on the carousel. If you move your head to the front, you will choke the others to their deaths. If you don't, the others will make you suffocate to your last breath. But you will want to push your head forward in order stay alive. Within the last 2 minute of your life I offer you the second chance.

Only one of you will survive. Make your choice.

"Let the game begin"

And There It All Starts

Just like a light in the dark, you seem to be the answer to my heart. The key to my future. But some things remain a shadow in you. Joyful, friendly, pretty, heartfelt, fervent and devout might have been the perfect words to describe you. To me you are all but a perfection. But things ...

Things could have gone differently if I hadn't chosen to be here, right now. In every moment that I take, you are always there before me. Your ubiquitous virtual image always appears. Slowly and step by step, reaching towards you is not an easy thing to do. My heart is craving for a big leap but yet, it has always failed me. I fear ...

Fear of losing you has always consumed me. But heck, I move on. All those situations that revolve around me don't deserve my priority. Prior to nine-three of last year I had been lost but you gave me a brand new hope just like an oasis for those lost in the desert. Really and really ...

Really thank God for your presence.Though you don't and won't notice, at the end of my day the truth will prevail. For you.

You are such a blessing. :)