The Need and The Want

We often go to department stores, shopping centres, you name it. And all of a sudden, maybe one wouldn't expect that he had spent much money extravagantly that day. My point is: many of us don't really realise what the differences between want and need are.

Want
Perhaps you once encountered this. When you were wandering about the mall, you were walking round the shops and somehow your eyes were caught off guard by an item. You really felt that if you don't buy it, the world will crush upon you. But in fact, let's say that thing is a piece of clothing, you've got a couple of cabinets full of garments! Oh gee, you should do charity by donating 50% of your clothes to those who are unable to buy them. Just donate it to an organisation anyway. A good example of want: A friend's mom of my friend literally has a tiny room filled with hundreds of footwear! For the love of God, please? Such a waste of money. Have you ever heard a story of Hong Kong's multimillionaire who jumped into the gutter just only to recover a coin that accidentally fell off his pocket? Yes, it happened. Please respect any single cent of your money.

Need
Usually people think that when there's a fixed purpose of buying something is when we are in the state of "needing something". But what if your intention were driven by personal aim to just cover the empty space within your closets? Therefore, in my opinion, when there is a single necessary demand of something that lies within him, in which the thing is going to be used for the sake of his work, then it is called a need. For instance, a student needs a laptop when he's studying abroad. Well, yes, he surely needs it because when he's got no laptop, then where should he do his tasks?

In short, what I'm trying to utter is we need to be able to identify and to distinguish these two main issues. I am very optimistic that we can appreciate a bit of our money and invest it in something we need, not we want.

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Pengetahuan adalah nihil sebelum dipraktekan.
Knowing is nothing. Applying what you know is everything!

Nothing's Perfect

I couldn't sleep early lately. There was always something revolving in my mind before I went to sleep. I was cumbered with this some sort of good old seeming philosophy. I kept questioning: "Is it true that nothing's perfect?".

When I looked back I figured out interesting facts indeed. It happened last year. I met this gorgeous girl. We had some conversations and I was lucky I could keep in touch with her more frequent. I loved the way she was, but as time rolled by, when we dined I uncovered the truth that she was "carnivorous". I don't know whether you guys accept a type of woman like this? Because to me, I feel that someone who does not eat vegetables dies faster and subjects to heart diseases, strokes, cancers, etc. No offense, okay? Moreover, I also think "what my and her child will be? I mean our child will be malnourished and will lack the vitamins and minerals needed." Well, people say I am far-sighted. But I perceive myself differently: I think of the long-term impact.

And there are still many other experiences regarding this. But well, I hope my paradigms are false! But I was instilled to behold the opposite. Hopefully I can change this silly thinking of mine. I was too heavily-burdened. And I also hope I could have a good time with her, again. :)

N O T H I N G' S   P E R F E C T.
Yes, it is.

I Passed My 12th Grade!

Today those scores were revealed. And although on some subjects I feel quite upset and "rice has turned into porridge", I am proud that I can graduate from secondary school! *Yeaayy!*

I am happy overall! :)

Hey, It is You I'm Writing About!

I like being with you. I don't mind if my parents are mad of me because I go home late. I like to keep those times stand still. Because the more I am beside you, the more I feel like home. You are such a nice girl, you know? You are different. You are like no others. You are not a naughty type, a quality guys want their girlfriends to be. You are kindhearted, the jewel of mystery. You are like the gold people are seeking after. And you are only one. No other girls can impersonate your inner charms. You are shining even though you are upset...Why? Because the inner beauty you've got in you!

Was I staring at an angel?! Because I could see the wings on your back! You are perfectly built for the killing. And I am dead now because of you. I was shot by the bullet of love. You are irresistible. Your smile, your eyes,.... everything about you is but a dream that comes to life! And with your magic spell, I have been resurrected. I am now forgetting my death, those ugly things in the near past. I am walking on the right track because of your presence.

Have you not heard the angels singing? I could see ten of thousands of stars glittering the two of us. While everybody else around us is going about, can we just stop and talk a while? Do tell me more about yourself please. I'd like to know more about you. You are my centre of attention. Just can't get rid of you!

Did you still remember the trot we took together? When the sunlight shimmered your pretty face? I could not stop thinking if I was living a dream? As if life were never meant to be like this great! I am wondering how a goddess like you came down to the earth and met me, a mere ugly, silly boy?
Yes, you are surprisingly extraordinary.
You are the best.
You are _ _ _ _ _ _    _ _ _ _ _ _. :)

"I Think I am ..."

When I looked at my status, it's "single". To me, this word keeps harassing me obliquely. The most unreliable source of my strength. The vault of my weaknesses. I am truly under pressure. And sometimes I feel dull. Dull about what it will become in my future. Whether I will finally find The One? Or perhaps ... no, that's not worth thinking.

Surely these are what I think I am:
1. Fall in love quite easily
Yeah. I said "quite". It seems that so-called pheromone has a lot to do with this. haha. I do have some sort of qualification, but when it comes to meet the girl, the feeling just pops! I guess everybody is like that?

2. Choosy
I have my own type, which I personally can't even tell either. Perhaps the principle which states that "my girlfriend will become my wife" is not making any sense. But yes, I choose my soul mate. So, I would be very thorough in inspecting girls from the way they act, their attitudes and so on.

3. Loyal
I define myself as a loyal guy. Hard statement though. But why? Because I am instilled to be for one lady only. When I fall in love in the first sight, I am sure I will look after her. Believe it or not? :) Tough assertion. I can't elaborate much.

4. You judge me
Hello guys. It's time to judge me. It's not me talking about me, but it's you talking about me, right? You all are my friends and I guess you know me pretty deep, eh? So, feel free to comment about who I really am.

Cheers!

A Wound that Healed

That ugly March.. the fact that she had been taken made my heart shattered (as always). Yeah, but guess what? I was feeling strong enough to repel the wave that was crushing down on me even though I was on the brink of my downfall, I do know... that, well, I was late again. That I did not learn from the past. A regret that took a long while to fade.
One benefit: Brokenhearted is no more painful than ever.

I was sad. I was blue. I was kind of losing hopes that moment. In brief, I was totally spiritless! Yet, days surely would never put the pieces back into one. I hated it. I was trying to say to myself that I was living a lie! But crying over spilled milk is just a waste of time, isn't it?

As days roll by, I found me a bit fortunate. April turns out to be more promising yet demanding. :) I have worked unsociable hours with this ailment and God seemed to be knowing what I was exactly needing, a spring. So then, 4 days ago, I was introduced to someone who astonished me! I was staggered. Her unmatched inner-charm has caught me off guard although I have tried numerous times to elude it. So surprised that I have been thinking of her in everything that I do. I found it hard to drop her off. I just want to buy some more time just to be with her. Haha. A common feeling of love.

Can't tell you whether this feeling is real or it is just a mere byproduct in which March's ugliness is taken into account? I'd say I'm not sure. But it preferably goes to the real side. I am a realist anyways. :)

A new golden dawn. And the stake is high: CalvinKlein. :p

P.S. Thank you Lord Jesus for her presence in my life. Thank you SE, you are the best mate God's ever given!
Cheers!

God Does Exist!

I still have that thing kept in mind. I still remembered September 31^st 2007, the first day of my one-year invocation. But I have not been able -yet- to recall when and where I retrieved that life-changing book? I believe I did not buy it. I know I found it somewhere. It could be in the chapel. Strange was it. Why did I take the book and bring it home? It's such a mystery that I myself have managed to grasp the answer, but the answer is hiding somewhere unreachable. Sometimes before I sleep, I take time and give an answer to myself: "Well.. Perhaps it's God's plan."

The book is titled "15 DOA Untuk Menghormati 5480 Pukulan Pada Tubuh Yesus". And inside it there were printed a background how that invocation handbook was made, Jesus' 23 promises and a series of prayers. The promises Jesus offers are so intriguing and thus, I started praying. 7 days passed, 1 month, 3 months, 6 months ..... and finally a year. I prayed it for one year, without one single day wasted. At first I couldn't believe it! I was like "Wow?! I have prayed for a year?? That's unbelievable! I could not even focus on one thing for a long period of time beforehand!"

Since the day I commenced praying, I felt many changes in me. I felt as if I had been reborn once again to this world! I felt brand new. Fresh and vibrant. And from that point afterward, I can perceive the promises He mentioned in the book. I experienced numerous incidents which, I can tell you, are so amazing that I couldn't believe my own eyes! I could have been blind if Jesus had not been by my side. I may not have been here sharing this if Jesus had not helped me.

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Promise no. 17 : "Kamu akan mendapatkan segala sesuatu yang engkau minta dari Allah dan Perawan Maria"

"Jesus answered my prayers". That's what I think. And I believe His words are always true. Heaven and earth may cease, but His words remain. Do you know that most of my wishes come to life?? Yes, it happens. Well, there is a Virgin Mary grotto in the complex of my school. I sometimes spend my days after school go there and pray for a while. And recently I just fathomed and comprehended that most of what I asked of are answered. For example, last October I prayed for God's clemency on my wrongdoings and pleaded Him that I could reconcile with a teacher and the next day 'that teacher' visited me and problem was solved. Another example is when I ask Mother Mary to guide and give the best for my sister's further education, the next day..poof! Problem was solved right away. And when I ask of God about winning something, and ting! My dad won.

"Hell!" I think. The grotto is blessed. And I guess me either. Sometimes this matter mystifies me. But well, it is God's design. Neither I nor all of us can answer it.
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What I've learnt so far is God exists. Nowadays, many people let go of their faiths, many of us no longer believe in God. Some people condemned God for things occurring in their lives. I know this world has gone astray and now on condition of disarray. We can't change the world, but we can change ourselves. And one thing will never change: No matter what God you believe in, as long as you keep believing, God is always on your side.